Saturday, August 13, 2016

Long Distance Relationship

It is simply contagious. A euphoric feeling you get when you see something you desire or are attracted to.

I have found her. I get butterflies over seeing her pictures, it is ridiculous. All I want to do is be the reason she smiles. Be the person she can lean on when she goes through tough times.

I want her to be the person I can come to when I'm excited about something. Her to tell me I'm dumb when I do something stupid. Her to love me and her to let me love her.

I get nervous thinking about traveling to see her in real life. Instead of this internet friendship.

I write this for a chance to release these inner feelings, yet I can tell with every passing word that it isn't the case of getting them out. It is the desire to act upon them.

She is across the world from me, it takes time to make such a trip and money.

If you've had long distance relationships then you know the struggle. I can assure you they are just as real as regular relationships.

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

The US Government Are A Terrorist Organization

The precipice is upon us. The world is at stake. For this is written in hopes others will understand and truly unite under a single banner. For if we do not death and destruction awaits us all.

Living in terror based on skin colour, gender, and individuality, from a single entity. A crime lord syndicate, that holds the reigns of corruption and greed with the simple means of terror. This terrorism should not be ignored.

I am talking about the American government. With the lies, and manipulation to keep those who call them their leaders ignorant of the true dangers of the truth of the world. For they have forged all acts of terror against its own people, for the simple task of solidifying control.

It is the patriotic duty of every American to overthrow the corrupt and replace it with the just.

For if it fails, the ones whom I stand with, will be labeled traitors. If we succeed we can throw away the notion, the fear, of world war three.

For if we live in America, if we call ourselves her citizens, then we are American. No matter where your family came from, if you are her citizen, you are her citizen.

No colour, no gender, none of that matters when you are fighting for what is truly right. Not what we are lead to believe is right.

I do not wish to be a leader, but sadly I must speak up, I must speak true. It is a cross that I begrudgingly bare. For a time shall come when we must organize and one to speak for the majority, forge a new government, to where it is truly the peoples wishes. What America was dreamt to be, not what corruption and greed has lead us to.

So for those you love, for the injustice you see and live with. Unite and fight it. Fight the broken system, fight the government. For we've only seen the pawns in this war, a war has been waged on us for awhile. A war to strip us of our freedoms, for now it is a time to fight back, with pen or with sword. No longer stand silent, no longer use the tools these criminals have given us to keep us separate and ignorant. Such as racism, and sexism. Fear of other religions.

The evils such as Isis or Al Queda are the creations to control us through fear.

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Fallout 4 Playstation 4 Melee Only Very Hard

So I was playing Fallout 4 on my fathers PS4 because mine is not only broken, but I don't have a TV to play it on.

Doing my third play through Melee weapons only, with the exceptions of grenades and flare gun (which isn't really a weapon) nobody said I can't call in reinforcements.

It is very hard early game to play strictly melee weapons, because (spoiler alert) you have to fight a deathclaw pretty much right off the bat and they give you a minigun to say FUCK YOU to the deathclaw. Well running melee only made that gesture extremely difficult nay impossible, so I had to run around that and level before being able to rescue the minutemen.

I'm tempted to do a stream of it all, but that'll be after I make sure its possible to beat the game like this in a timely fashion, screaming about how much I die, etc.

The other day I loaded into the game and a brahmin fell out of the sky and acted like nothing happened. I'm so glad I've got that recorded.

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Sunday, February 28, 2016

It's The Little Things In Life

Of all the tragedies that continuously occur in my life, you have to enjoy the little things.

with how my life goes, I'm starting to think it follows Murphy's Law.
What ever can happen, will happen.

You find love, you can lose it, then you will lose it.
Very few are able to truly survive that.

I drown myself in activities I enjoy, to distract myself from that fact.

I love making videos, like sketch comedy, vlogs, informative things. I need to get back into it, but having all my things stolen but a few changes of clothes makes things difficult. Yes, I've uploaded videos, but I've got a phone, and using my fathers computer to edit.

I also enjoy video games, mainly RPG's

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Sometimes you've gotta find new passions. Document your life, share the things you love, who knows you might help someone, or inspire them.

Peace be with you all.

Saturday, February 27, 2016

Playstation 4 Or Xbox One?

Every console based gamer knows of the console wars, friendships were built and lost on such things.

being devoured by the urge to show supremacy, we picked sides. We are gamers, we are sure as hell competitive. We know the importance of testing ourselves, mainly our hand eye coordination, unless we've adopted more of the Kinect or Playstation Eye approach to games.

We all have decided that video games is a favored art form of self expression, time wasting, and stress relief.

I for one used it as a coping mechanism for my extremely abusive upbringing. I used it to escape this world, into one that wasn't so bad.

Now what side of the console wars do I sit? Well, currently, I'm with the PS4. Last gen I was xbox 360.

How could I switch sides so easily? It wasn't a tough decision. Xbox One was ran on Windows 8. My hatred for that knows no bounds. Windows 10 is barely better.

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Saturday, February 20, 2016

Socialality The Social Network For The Arts

Socialality Indiegogo Campaign
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I've had a dream for years to have a place for artists to be free to express themselves without the fear of censorship.

Also a place that children aren't going to be on.

Thats why the last 6 months I've been working on a plan for my own site.
It'll be a social network, but oriented towards the arts. Have an option to sell your work, and of course, I'll be running a blog and youtube channel, to help bring attention to those who I believe should be better known.

I will actively search through my members and through their works.

Please, subscribe to my youtube channel, and pay attention to the videos I upload, they'll tell more and more about the site, the initial artists, on there. If you are interested please let me know, I go through everything sent to me.

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Thursday, June 25, 2015

I love you more than I realized

How do you forgive yourself when you lose control of yourself?

When you hurt someone you love in inexplicable ways?

How am I supposed to fix it?

There's nothing I can do, she's scared of me. I'm probably meant to be alone.